Monday, March 30, 2009

Upward movement

It is finished. I have completed the Lord, change my attitude study that I have been working through for the past 10 weeks. So, what is the result? Is it back to business as usual? I sure hope not. This study has been so amazing. I want to say life changing...I want it to be life changing.

When I started this study I had no idea how much my attitudes needed to be changed. God has been busily at work chipping away from many areas in my life. Attitudes that I really did not consider sinful, but they were. I have complained in areas I should have been thankful, I have coveted when I should have been content, I have been critical when I should have loved, I have doubted when I should have practiced faith, and I have rebelled when I should have submitted.

I have been doing the christian walk now for a long time so when I saw the table of contents I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I knew what the author would say about each of those elements, but I did not (I think that may have been a little prideful). Each of the negative or wilderness attitudes were presented and un-layered in a way that I did not expect and it revealed things in my heart I did not like. The first week the author said 'we create our own wilderness by our attitude'. That the children of Israel would not have spent 40 years in the desert had they not doubted, complained, coveted, been critical and rebelled. I don't want to live my life in the desert.

So were do I go from here? God is moving and I want to move with Him. He is showing me some areas in my life that He wants to change. Some of them because they are not edifying and some just because change mixes things up and it is time for movement. It is always fun to see God moving even if I don't know where He is going. I have learned so much about myself and the Lord and I don't want this to be a temporary thing. This process is a bit like surgery, but surgery is to get rid of what is not supposed to be there or fix what is wrong. And that is a very good thing.

3 comments:

Jeanine said...

Amazing video. Beautiful.
Enjoy your day.

Jamie @ Purposeful Pursuit said...

I'm looking forward to watching you grow and change...you seem to do it so gracefully. I too don't want my changes to be temporary.

Love that song! I don't want to go through the motions!

Lori said...

Jill,
Thank you for sharing your journey through the "attitude changing" bible study.
I can see how much it has impacted you through our conversations and I pray that it will be life changing for you!!!!
You are my hero!!!!
;0)