Sunday, February 22, 2009

Enough.

I am determined to post something more substantial this week than a Monday Menu. That is why I am posting on Sunday ;o) Don't get me wrong, the menus have a great place and keep things running on track in our home (a least for meal time). But my posts have been a bit...I don't know...lame? Hair and menus. Wow, that is deep. I got to see Jamie yesterday and that made me think of how much I miss her posts. Jamie, that is not to guilt you. You just always put a smile on my face when I read your posts. Lately whenever I see Jamie we ask each other how the frugal living is going. That is a post all in itself. But I do want to share what God has been teaching me the last few weeks. Apparently He needs to drive this in deep because for the last four weeks it has been the same lesson. God is enough.

I already talked about this a bit the first week when the lesson was on complaining. Whenever I am complaining it is telling God He is not enough. The second week just reinforced that thought with the lesson on thankfulness. I have really been working on being thankful and saying thank you as often as possible with being sincere. You know what I have learned? I have really not been a very thankful person. The ugly word of entitlement comes to mind.

The past two weeks the lesson has been on covetousness and contentment. God has brought me so far from where I had been in the early years of marriage with covetousness. Yes, the green eyed monster comes out from time to time but really not very often anymore. Yet I learned in week four that I still struggle somewhat with contentment. Again the theme of God is enough. Just like God, He has given me opportunity to practice this theme. Again and again He has given me opportunities to either practice being content or not. Will I trust in Him and truly believe that He is enough. That He is big enough. Involved enough. Cares enough. Provides enough. Loves enough. Will give enough justice.

If you would have asked me before if I believed that God is all I needed I would have given the right answer, yet He is pushing and chiseling away on my grasp of control. Giving me opportunities to trust Him to be enough.

If you think of me pray for me this next week. The lesson is on a critical spirit. I have known from the beginning of this study this would be a hard week to swallow. More chiseling will be involved.

5 comments:

mholgate said...

Jill, you will be in my thoughts and prayers this week. It is tough to admit it, but I struggle with the very same issue of God being "enough."

Great thoughts, keep them coming! Thanks for sharing what God is doing in your heart.

Blessings,
Melissa

Lori said...

you will be in my prayers, my friend.
I pray that the love and friendships you have in your life will be the "anesthetic" you need to get you through this challenging week coming.
;0)

Jamie @ Purposeful Pursuit said...

Great thoughts, Jill! This study you are going through sounds like an excellent one...a tough one, but a good one. I'm sure I would benefit greatly from it.

I'll be praying for you this week for sure.

I really appreciate your friendship...thanks for being a great friend.

Leslie said...

Jill, how real. We all like to have our Jesus plus >>>>>>>>> (fill in the blank). I will be praying for you as you discover how much your Father loves you. I am so grateful for the friendship of your family.

Cyndi said...

Amen, Jill. I have been struggling with this, too. The Bible study I'm doing right now made the distinction between God and His manifest power. Is my faith in Him alone, or in His manifest power in my life? What is it that I truly want? Him? Or what He can do for me? I hadn't really thought about that before,and I've really been praying that what I will truly desire is God Himself. You're right... He's enough.