I have tried this several times. To start this space again. Way back, several years ago, I loved blogging. I met interesting like minded people and it was a way to process what I was learning and how I was growing. Back then it didn't seem as though I was able to form a complete thought without the process of writing it down. And then it changed.
I am not sure exactly when or what happened. But somewhere along the way I became way too self conscious. I remember going to dinner with a group of friends and one woman made a comment that blogging was narcissistic and it made me question my motives. Was sharing recipes, crafts and thoughts really just a way to focus on me?
Then there came the time when you had to have a niche. What kind of blogger was I? Because apparently you need to have a niche if you are going to be on the internet. I didn't feel as if I had a specialty or anything of any real value to say.
Add in broken friendships,life challenges, and Pintrest perfection...and I quit.
Too much time wasted on comparison and trying for perfection. Too much value placed on what others thought. God is teaching me much about self-grace as well as others-grace. How much I need Him. Oh, how I need HIM.
I have a daughter getting married, a son visiting colleges, a daughter struggling to find who she is, another maneuvering through Junior High and one in full blown 8 year old childhood. This is a new season in life I am starting. One with chicks in the nest as well as some birds starting to soar. I want to love my people well. I want to live a life of grace. Grace to others and grace to myself.
Thank you Rachel for this very timely and encouraging post on maneuvering change.